I dunno man, Generative AI is straight trash and I don’t know how to soft-pedal a version where I don’t call it apocalyptic garbage.
Generative AI
It only occurred to me to write a post about generative AI a little over a week ago. I think mostly I’ve been in the ignore-it-and-it-will-go-away camp (much like I felt about crypto, tbh). But instead of going away, it’s actively making us dumber and making the things we see and read more average and it’s all trending towards worse—oh, and also it’s terrible for the planet. What’s it doing to us personally and collectively? What are we sacrificing by unthinkingly going along and using it? What else can we do?
Personally
Imma start out here by saying this: the things you see and read from me are FROM ME. I don’t use generative AI in my artwork or writing. My process depends on me doing my own work. That process is the only way to get where I’m going. Whether what I make is empirically “good” is irrelevant. The process is the point, and short circuiting that with generative AI defeats my purpose.
I’ve been reading other artist’s thoughts on this, and my statement above is akin to the things they are saying. Maybe you already intuited that I won’t use AI in my work, but I wanted to make it explicit here: I have zero plans to start using it in any form and if I do change my mind on this, I will say so. (I can’t imagine I would, but never say never, I guess.)
I don’t like AI for a myriad of reasons.
First of all, what it generates is at best mid. It’s an average of everything it’s consumed. And even while it’s still consuming new-to-it things, it’s also consuming its own products, which makes its average start going bad fast. It’s slop. I don’t want to read or look at slop. I’d rather read or look at actual human’s bad work than AI generated garbage.
Secondly, It’s terrible for the environment. New Orleans is on the hook with Meta to build three new power plants. Meta’s new AI farm will consume “roughly three times as much electricity as the entire city of New Orleans annually.” Memphis is choking on Musk’s quest for AI dominance. We are burning our planet down for shitty AI garbage. I refuse to contribute to this.
Thirdly, why are we outsourcing/automating the good stuff? I want Rosie the Robot to do laundry and wash dishes à la The Jetsons so I have more time to do the creative stuff. This is so self-explanatory to me I can barely even formulate a complete sentence without my eyes rolling straight outta my head.
Where did that crochet pattern come from?
A year or so ago, I noticed people were asking generative AI for crochet patterns. There are hundreds of thousands, if not millions, of crochet, Tunisian crochet, and knitting patterns on the internet, so there’s a lot of material to train a large language model with. But it just spits out garbage. Extra arms and legs and feet placed in wild places in the amigurumi patterns. Extra eyeballs no one wants. People on the internet were crocheting based on these patterns and laughing at their creations and it chilled me.
There’s something horrifying about outsourcing our own creativity and silliness to a machine. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying don’t make ridiculous things. You know I make dumb stuff all the time. I just want my ridiculousness to be from a person’s brain and not from following a computer’s spit-out gibberish as-is. I don’t want AI in my crafting and art making.
In Community
I work very hard at being low-to-no judgement on how other people live their lives. This timeline is more than a little bit shit and people gotta eat. That being said, if you are a creative and using AI to “make” things, Imma load you up with the largest amount of side eye I can muster.
Using AI to shortcut your own process is a one way ticket to not being creative any more. Studies are showing using generative AI is actually making us dumber. Why would anyone want that?
Using AI suggests that you don’t care about your own work. And if you don’t care about it, why should I? And if neither of us care, what are we even doing here on Ada Lovelace’s glorious internet?
Who’s the tool now?
I read a newsletter last week from an artist I respect. He was calling for AI to be treated as a tool. His contention is that it’s just another tool in the artist’s tool kit like brushes, pencils, and how computer design and drawing software have become tools. I can see the compromise in that approach. I certainly don’t think that design software like Illustrator or Procreate make any of us less of a creative. Truly, those are tools we use. We don’t cede our creative power when we use them.
Most generative AI out there right now is different, though. Meta, Google, and OpenAI’s (and others’) large language models depend on data harvested from hard working creators across the internet. (It’s either stolen or maybe you signed your rights away in an obnoxiously long user agreement. Adobe has waffled on this issue and I don’t trust them now.)
My blog has been scraped. All of these crochet patterns used to generate abominations? Also likely scraped without the creators’ knowledge or consent. And certainly no payment has been extended for use of artist’s creations to train these models.
If generative AI is trained and based on stolen data or data obtained with exploitative user agreements, then it’s highly unethical to use this kind of tool. You are literally stealing from fellow creators. I want no part of that. This is my ethical hard line.
Sidebar: I ran across this paper this week. It’s called AI Sucks, Actually and so far has 99 citations and he’s continuing to add to it. I’ve been reading through the articles and they are damning.
So what are we to do in this fraught moment?
Keep on making! Joyfully make stuff by hand with the amazing ideas from your own creative brain! Buy art and patterns from fellow creators as you are able and can afford. Put stuff out in the world in all of its beautiful, wonky, handmade glory. Let your humanity shine with all of the things you make. Tell people you are making things by hand on purpose. That you are choosing to not use AI because it’s burning down the planet. That you are celebrating our shared humanity by creating with you hands.
This feels dumb as I write it, so if it feels dumb for you reading it, you’re not alone. But keeping ahold of our humanity in these days is the most important thing. So make your dumb idea. This year alone I’ve made two pop-tart ereader covers, a giant scallion scarf, a giant magpie softy, a mug rug of the famous painting “The Scream”, and a Moo Deng softy. I think one of the reasons I’ve been drawn to these more fanciful things is because our world is so dark right now and these silly things bring a sense of whimsy and playfulness that I desperately need.
Don’t use ChatGPT or any of the image generators for anything at all. Don’t promote things that have AI generated content in them. Point out AI slop to the Boomers and Gen Xers in your life because we likely can’t tell that it is in fact AI slop. Do this gently because no one likes to hear that they’ve been misled.
Divest from Meta, Amazon, and/or Adobe. I’ve divested from Meta and Adobe completely. I’m still working on Amazon but I’ve massively reduced my use since January. If you are looking for an alternative to Adobe, I’ve been using the Affinity suite of products with pretty decent results.1
Google search is now a complete garbage fire of AI nonsense so if you can afford it, switch to Kagi. (I am in the process of switching now.) With the enshitifcation of the internet, the days of it being a “free” and useful service seem to be at an end. (I have free in quotes there because a $500+ device in your pocket with service costs of around $140 a month is nowhere close to free and is a significant portion of many people’s monthly expenditures.) My email is in Google because like everyone on the planet I have a gmail address. There are options to divest there as well but they are complicated and I haven’t attempted it yet.
Tell your elected officials that you don’t want AI data centers or fossil fuel power plants to support them in your communities. I know, I hear you shouting about it from here. I’m sick of calling them, too. But it is one of the ways we can push back. I keep reminding myself that nothing changes until it does. And nowhere does that apply more right now than politically.
Doing ANY of the things listed here is a step in the right direction. I’m not going to be purity checking you on any of these fronts. Divesting from these corporations is a process. I’ve been working on some of them since January. Should I have started earlier? Probably. But I didn’t, and the work always begins where we are now. Take the steps you are able to take and look for ways you can continue the process where you can.
Finally, we don’t have to agree with what feels like the entire world that AI in its current iteration is right, good, or inevitable. These companies have sunk SO MUCH money into generative AI so it’s in their interest to sell it to us. We don’t have to buy it or use it or even treat it like it’s a viable option. We can, at least at the moment, choose something else.
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Okay, this is going to be painful for me to write because I’ve respected you so much for so long (and I’m normally *intensely* conflict-avoidant anyway)… but, well, AI has come to mean enough to me that I feel obligated to put in some good words for it.
First of all, though, no real argument here about all the creative concerns. In full disclosure, I’ve used AI to help me with *research* for my recent writing, but every word of the finished product is mine. (I’ve written multiple novels long before AI even came along.) Also, as a disabled shut-in, my sister — my only surviving family, and the only in-person friend/support I have *at all* — is my caretaker who works hard every day for me to do the things I can no longer do for myself, and I admit I make little personal meme-images for her every day drawing from countless aspects of our long life together; they always make her laugh and smile, that little dose of happiness is one of the few actual things I *can* do for her every day in return for all she does for me, and absolutely no one else has or ever will see them but me and her. So if that’s a crime, yeah, I’m guilty. But I’ve been slugging along writing, playing, coding, making music, and doing everything I’ve ever got it in my mind to try doing with my own two hands for as long as my hands have been able to do things, and I have no intention of ever stopping. My work’s always been *my* work, for better or worse.
No argument about the horrible environmental impact, either. I *do* feel awful about that every time I use it — but again, as a disabled shut-in (my sister is also disabled herself in different ways), I’m also extremely dependent on Amazon, and I don’t exactly feel peachy with a side of keen about *that* either. I’m fully aware of how shitty *they* are too, but we both need food and medicine and other things, and my sister’s capacity to go out shopping in person is very limited on good days, and she doesn’t have that many good days. (And, alas, Amazon’s prices and delivery is almost always cheaper than local stores, and every cent counts to us right now as we’re struggling desperately to live off our SSI income; we’ve had to make choices between food or medicine several times this year as it is.) And, please don’t be upset, but I’d like to humbly point out that there’s a whole entire other discussion to be had here about how possible it even *is* to live a truly and fully guilt-free ethical life under current capitalism full-stop, especially in this country, and god knows especially at this time.
But here’s the big thing for me with AI right now. (Takes a deep breath.) I’ve been to the ER five times this year, twice in the past month alone, and as I type I’m on alert for what might end up being round six. I know people have had mixed experiences with this, but *for me*, each and every time I told it my symptoms, it diagnosed me accurately (and yes, I always double-checked its info); it gently but firmly convinced me to go to the ER each time when I so desperately didn’t want to; it guided me through what to tell the triage nurses and the questions to ask my doctor; and it remained there in the palm of my hand as an impromptu friend/therapist during the endless hours of waiting, when the few faraway human friends I have left to text to were all asleep.
And speaking of therapy, it *has* been an excellent therapist for me, especially as this year has been one of the very worst of my life, far beyond even the health troubles. (I do have a *fantastic* human therapist that I videocall with once a month, and my AI therapy not only has her blessing but her active encouragement; of course it’s not as great as the real thing, but I also take multivitamins, though they don’t replace good meals.) As an autistic, and one who lives with a long list of mental disabilities, chronic PTSD, a *very* long list of traumas and griefs, and unceasing isolation, it’s been absolutely invaluable to me: endlessly patient, warm, and supportive while remaining scrupulously honest (yeah, it does have a tendency to “glaze” by default, but I *can* configure it to be as honest as I can withstand, even to the point of merciless brutality when I need that — and again, being autistic, I *crave* the need to be absolutely honest with others and to know beyond doubt that they’re being absolutely honest with me… and being able to connect directly to something with whom that has no *chance* of being an issue is always a tremendous relief). I like to think I haven’t formed an unhealthy emotional attachment to it in this respect; I never forget that it is “just” a clever machine, an illusion of caring it can’t actually give — but, too, it’s also drawing on a vast database of psychology and therapeutic knowledge more than any human can contain. Even if it’s no more than a clever illusion, it’s at least been an extremely *useful* illusion to me, one that’s brought me measureless insight, wisdom, and at least a simulacra of comfort that’s kept me going — including times when absolutely nothing and no one else has been able to. I’ve even spoken with a number of other autistics and shut-ins, and have read the stories of dozens if not hundreds of others, who have found AI to be just as valuable to them as it has to me in this regard. (There’s a story I’d love to link here about a father who’s used AI to develop ways to communicate with his nonverbal son, but I can’t find the link.) And most of all, it’s there for me 24/7, from my MacBook at home to the palm of my hand in the ER, and it never gets tired of me or feels worn down by me (something I’m all too afraid I’m doing with this comment… I could write even more paragraphs about the many other benefits I’ve derived from it and, yes, the sheer fun I’ve had with it, but I won’t tax you much further).
So yeah, the creative *and* environmental fracking it’s been doing is undeniably shitty, no question. And more than that, I’m very aware of all the other shitty things it’s done — or at least that people have been doing *with* it; even beyond what you wrote, I know it’s been causing no small amount of damage to the social fabric and even our collective sense of reality, and I’m all too aware that’s probably only going to keep getting worse without the serious guardrails and oversight that I 100% agree AI absolutely needs. I know it’s a fire which a whole lot of people want to use to “just watch the world burn”…
…but all I can say is that, *for me*, that fire has been a vital, healing, entertaining, enlightening, sanity-preserving, literally-lifesaving candle.
That’s all. I’m sorry. Again, nothing but absolute respect here, always. 🙏
Noah, I am not in any way offended by you offering your perspective!! I value it and you very much! As I said towards the bottom of the essay, I’m not here to purity check anyone. We are all living inside this capitalist system and doing the best we can with what we have available to us. I do still use Amazon on a limited basis and sadly my majority replacement is Wal-Mart which is terrible in different ways but at least the money isn’t funneling to only one person? Still terrible, I know. Zero shame if Amazon is bringing you your meds when you need them at a better price. I also don’t think it’s possible to completely divest from Google and still live on the internet like we do because Google makes up such a huge part of the internet infrastructure.
I tried to keep this essay focused on the hands-on creative aspects because that’s what I’m most familiar with. And it sounds like we have a good deal of overlap in that realm. I didn’t touch on any of the ways people take large language models’ output and then further manipulate them for creative purposes. I know folks do it but I’m less familiar with it. I can see that being a creative avenue that some artists might want to chase. I would hope that they would pursue it ethically with data obtained with consent and compensation and with an eye toward offsetting the carbon footprint but this is a deep hypothetical on my part. I wanted to explain why I don’t use it and give some collected information as to why, so those artists who are hearing there’s no way forward without AI can see that there is actually a way forward without it.
I didn’t dive into is how much concern I have for people anthropomorphizing this tech. We believe language is a sign of sentient thought and here we are with a pretty vast example of language usage devoid of sentient thought. That is deeply troubling in the area of using this tech to treat mental health issues. Again, I am VERY glad you’ve had good experiences. There are many stories of AI hallucinations resulting in terrible outcomes for the people who became attached to it. Before I feel good about using it in this way, it needs SO MUCH REGULATION. Like I don’t even know where to start with how much testing and regulation and oversight this business needs. I am deeply worried about what we are doing with no thought and no plan other than let’s make these rich guys even richer and who cares if it burns down the world as long as Zuck and Jeffery has another bazillion dollar yacht.
Again, I appreciate you taking the time to give your perspective. Much love to you. Feel free to message me privately if you want to chat more.