Well that was a weird month

Posted on Sep 5, 2018 in blog
Well that was a weird month

I realized sort of all at once this past month that my whole creative life wasn’t working for me anymore. I’ve been hustling for so long that I couldn’t see that I’d drifted far, far off course. After an anxious couple of weeks, I realized I needed desperately to reprioritize and cut some things from my life.

I made the hard decision to leave my job at Get Messy. I made the hard decision to take a social media sabbatical. I spend a whole week learning to not interrupt every activity (including sleep!) with looking at my phone to see what I was missing on Instagram and Facebook every five minutes. That was a hard week learning how addicted I was to the dopamine hit of seeing those little red hearts and blue thumbs.

And then I went on vacation. I didn’t take many photos and I didn’t post any of them online. I visited with old friends and was really present in a way I can’t remember being in a long time. I didn’t think about what I was missing online. I just spent the days enjoying the trip and being with people.

I’m spending this week (and maybe next and really, I might take another week after that too) thinking about what I want to do with my art. While I love the work I’ve made in the past few years, I’m realizing how performative making it has become. It’s like it doesn’t exist if I don’t put it on Instagram and then catalog it on this site weekly. And I’m just tired of living that way. It makes me anxious and I don’t like feeling anxious.

I have no idea what reintegration of my work and the internet is going to look like but I know it’s not going to be every day for a while or maybe ever again. I don’t know right now. For a while, I’m just going to make things and dream and maybe occasionally post.

I’ll be around though and I certainly would love to talk to you! I want to hear about the big project you are about to embark on and I want to see the pictures of your new pet goat so please email or text me if you want to chat!!

Grace and Peace.

12 Comments

  1. katie smith
    September 5, 2018

    I’ve been wondering about you! I figured you were taking some time off, and I’m glad that it’s been good for you. <3

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  2. Stephanie
    September 5, 2018

    Thank you for sharing your story. You are a gem.

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  3. Divyam
    September 5, 2018

    This sounds absolutely wonderful (and very inspiring too!). Thank you for the courage to follow what feels right! Divyam xxx

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  4. Julia
    September 5, 2018

    You’ve been on my mind, and funny enough so have many of these same themes! I am always inspired by your wisdom!

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  5. Lynnea
    September 5, 2018

    Sounds like great growth to me! I look forward to catching up soon.

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  6. Talia
    September 5, 2018

    So brave if you Misty! It can take some real guys to step out of our “normal” and make the changes we realise we need. 🙂

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  7. Vanessa
    September 5, 2018

    Sounds like this break was just what you needed. I understand how you feel and good on you for following your heart! Can’t wait to see where this leads you

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  8. Lisa Monconduit
    September 5, 2018

    Misty, thank you for touching my life. You are truly an inspiration

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  9. Cindy
    September 6, 2018

    Yes. This is everything. 💕🙏😍

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  10. Renée
    September 6, 2018

    Love ya, girlie! As one of the friends that got your attention on vacation, I had an absolute blast with you!

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  11. Gilly
    September 7, 2018

    I was wondering how you were Misty and so pleased to hear and see that you’re all good. I’ve been teetering on the edge of social media for a while. I hope you find what you’re looking for and fills your soul with happiness very soon. 🤗

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  12. M.E. Ster-Molnar
    September 7, 2018

    Good for you! IG can feel like a constant show & tell. What if you just want to express yourself and learn something new and work through it all? It sounds like you’re getting there. Enjoy the breathing room. XO

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